Suda hakuna

Suda, because I know you CONSTANTLY read my shit, you have a choice to ignore it or post it. You decide to post it. The only thing i'm going to reply to on your whole shit. Is if you really wanted to move on, really wanted us not to be apart of your life.........stop giving any of us the time of day, the rent in your head. Stop clinging onto it all. Posting up the fucking journal updating it EVERY TIME someone whines of " Oh dilila said this! " Or " Dilila and the other two did that!" It shows you're fucking clinging onto something that should have fucking died a long time ago. It shows you still want to put fucking effort into it and it shows you're SSTILL poking a bear that when we finally fucking snap and clap back, you come back with " OH THEY'RE STARTING DRAMA AGAIN!!!" Whether it's for your closure or not! It still shows you're the one still going. I've been wanting to say this for the longest fucking time, cuz honestly..... It's dumb, and not because i've been caught in stuff. Clearly i called my own ass out and didn't defend against things as the below shows. I at least have some humility to admit what i've done to people AND GO INTO DETAIL ON IT. Which btw.... The one thing I will note on. I wasn't the one who got you banned from boiling point. They did ask my opinion on the matter, but it was one of the admins who did. And they fired me from LS because of giving may your discord which was on your furaffinity btw. Either way. I'm done with it, I'm done with you, i'm done with the drama of others. If you continue to update your journal after you've updated it to show EVERYONE about this update on my journal..... Then it shows who really is clinging onto something that's no longer there. Clarity doesn't come from clinging onto things, clarity doesn't come from spending time updating a journal or updating shit to try and run someone into the dirt. Clarity comes from dropping things and not thinking about it. You were a huge part of my life for 8+ years, i've been hurt multiple times, just like you have. I've suffered with mental and emotional stress because of our shit. Some of those years and times have been good, I've enjoyed the times we could spend together and not be at each others throats. But I can't keep clinging onto what will never be a thing again. Because we'll be right back to where we were...... Abusing each other. So. Goodbye Suda...... I hope you find some sort of clarity without needing to rely on publicly airing things out for everyone to see for some sort of attention...... And in the future. I'd hope you have the decency to go to people and get all information instead of going based off what people say with pictures. Cuz quite a few of the images you posted mainly of me.....you don't have all the information. For now.... Goodbye and have a decent life. 9/18/202 I did plan to write out every single thing that this woman has done to me over the years, to try and possibly knock her down a few pegs. Maybe just.....have her finally shut up and drop shit, since well...... If you REALLY REALLY wanted to move past it, and be done with drama. You'd think you wouldn't post up some bullshit thing like this right? But..... I decided to do this instead. Also for those wanting to know what this is for. Here. Check out what she has said. https://anotepad.com/notes/siwnjqc6 Yes, a lot of what Suda has said is true. I've been a fucking piece of shit to my friends, I will admit I haven't treated a lot of them right and have pushed some away. But, For those that understand that I'm trying to do better, those that still love me, those are the ones that are still around. The ones who are helping me to get better...It's why this isn't a rant about bringing someone down. I've lost friends, I've made new ones, but I've had the same people around me since I've joined SL again. I've moved above the hate and slander because of them. Yes, I still use other people's art as she has kindly provided a picture of my f-list of my girl acaila because it's the only one so far that she can see which DOESN'T have the art of mine on it. (despite the fact that I'm still using other people's art on my f-list and have a disclosure on most of my characters profiles that I don't own all of the art and the creator of said art is free to message me to ask for me to take it down. Which I'll also note is apart of the rules of f-list) I barely use f-list anymore and when I do it's mainly to keep in contact with a few friends who don't have discord or at least won't share it to just keep RL and RP separate. While I thought about this (This is an edit to what was originally here. ) I went to check my f-list and also found out, suda didn't bother screenshotting my FULL profile. Just the bits she wanted. I've gone and done that for you. While Yes, I am using someone else's art, and have since gotten new art of my own. I will henceforth show you the information that Suda refused to show you regarding this character profile. https://gyazo.com/411f89de5d918907f9ef05f73bfa9683 https://gyazo.com/439cab396f374b20bc3c1695a0292f71 It shows the character was made 4 years ago and that the last time I edited her was 2 years ago. The other screenshot was of the disclaimer I have. I couldn't have edited the photo or profile to add in the disclaimer either. And for those who still doubt me. Here you go https://gyazo.com/67b08802efcbe973270d6aeb7bb25ba5 As well, Yes. My girl Acaila is a character that was inspired by Caltroplay's character kejta. Actually Suda and I back in the day had characters which were siblings, acaila being the sibling. Since then I've remade her story and they're no longer siblings, but since coming to SL and bringing her on, yes... My first rendition of her was pretty much a complete rip because the creator didn't exactly listen to what I wanted and I was then stuck with it. I was new to the world of getting customs. But since then I've had 3-4 other custom skins made for her, each one is different than the other and my latest one, being done by my friend Red. (Who does amazing textures by the way) Here are the references for acaila over the years by the way and you can see the transition. stage1: https://static1.e621.net/data/sample/7e/fc/7efcb6c42cf2d7a5f3425811604f2f28.jpg (this was what I used for inspiration. The basis of my OC) stage2:https://live.staticflickr.com/1898/44553118962_208585cd24_b.jpg first rendition of her on SL stage3: https://live.staticflickr.com/65535/47825348321_07e35e2508_b.jpg second rendition stage4: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/714621154912108604/724049100181340210/Dilila_Ref.png same skin, but some minor updates stage 5: https://i.gyazo.com/thumb/1200/be6127f9410d8b722d42a36063efea86-png.jpg first work on her ref sheet which I did. stage6: https://i.gyazo.com/thumb/1200/4ac7137f48138821237cc24f8318bf8c-jpg.jpg Second rendition of her ref sheet. Again I did the work. stage7: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/714621154912108604/749325869545291826/Snapshot_203.jpg https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/714621154912108604/749325873181753434/Snapshot_204.jpg and this is the final product on SL with Razzy flair added in. yes, I've gone and made some major edits, changing the color palette, changing up the markings. I'm even getting a custom tail to fit for the ref sheet that I have, and I'm still getting a few edits done to the skin once I have that tail. So that's MY defense on MY character acaila. I've gone and used kejta and I fucking LOVE LOVE LOVE the character, however. I knew a lot quicker I shouldn't be using her and I should be making acaila in the light that I want and once I had the means to do so. I did it. There's actually only one character I had actually tried to totally rip and it was Suda's girl Octavia. Oh yes, I know... HOW DARE YOU! Well, there's a reason why. yes, I copied her character, used similar parts like the undropper head, some tentacles. How ever, I made it due to suda having come at me over a pair of nipple rings. https://marketplace.secondlife.com/p/Sensations-Nipple-Rings-Maitreya/10079739 These ones specifically. Able to be bought by anyone and everyone on the MP and because I used the same setting as her which is in the purchase. I was copying. So she figured it was a great idea to come at me, call me a copier and then block me. Well, because it's against the rules to take claims over people's work, she got removed from a discord group for it. Which later she came at me for. https://i.gyazo.com/thumb/1200/00247d6e599d37218243c44033470e8c-png.jpg 4 hours later, unblocked me and sent me this. Just to reblock me. So, yes. I am proud to say I copied her OC for the fact that I wore the same nipple rings as her! Now of course. I'm already in the works of remaking boop into my own OC instead of the copy I made her monster form as. Now let's move on. Did I get suda banned from sims? No, as I stopped caring. I lost my job at a place called lemme smash because of the bullshit between us, and I just...stopped trying. As well, if I wanted her banned from sims.....You'd think I would have banned her from places like IFC where I was the GENERAL MANAGER and had the right to do that based on a majority vote from staff...... But instead, I didn't. I never actively tried to get her banned from places, even though there's been plenty of places I HAVE been banned from where I stepped foot once on the property and never returned for months, only to come back and end up banned? The only place I had actually tried to get her removed from, was a group called fursona where she was outright breaking rules. Which I still have a screenshot of the majority vote from staff to have her removed (A call made by kodiene and one of her managers to have done)https://gyazo.com/72a6787fadc3941c62dc98df8900e524 (if you open this and look at the tab name it clearly states what it's for) Now, let's pop back up to the friend's thing. I actively knew that my friends were talking to her, I knew that people were talking to her and I stopped caring. I know it's going to happen but I never told them " You can't speak to her and we can't be friends if you do" Now..... Did I give some the cold shoulder? Or started to treat them like shit? Ya kind of. Because most of them only came to me to talk about drama, to talk about how "Oh Suda said this!" Or " Oh did you see what Suda made? Fucking god!" I started dropping them. Did I do it in a way that was well....bad? Fuck yes I did. Am I proud of it? Some of them, yes. Others, I honestly wish I could have done it differently and saved our friendship. But, past regrets are past regrets. Now, let's pop over to that issue regarding her speaking to me about red. Yes, she did ask me to speak to red. This was when red and I were just fixing the shit between us after I had tried to get her and zudrial to speak. This left a sour note in reds mouth and she didn't exactly trust me. I had spoken to red about it, but not to tell her to take it down. I had no right to tell her to take it down, more so after all the stuff, I've been through with suda. A line that I now LOVE to throw in people's faces. " I can't control what they do. I'm not their mom. " Sound familiar? Well, either way. I did talk to red and she said she would take it down on 2 conditions. 1) Suda apologizes for talking shit about red in her personal discord. Whether it was vent or not, it got back to red and it upset her. 2) Every time reds ex brings up red "copy botting" to Suda, Suda was supposed to tell her to stop and that red wasn't a copy botter. I never ONCE said that Suda had to go and attack reds ex. Just that when her ex brought up the lies, that Suda needed to shut the person down on it. https://i.gyazo.com/thumb/1200/be3eb517988b9e0f9005ceb30abc11e3-png.jpg Ya she asked me to stop, that's after I was asking her what SHE did to piss red off......well turns out it's from talking shit about red in her vent channel, not expecting it to get back to red. Now I think I'll end this off with the last part of Suda's little journal she wrote up. https://gyazo.com/60f001558891eb8faf03ac27fa3ec25c That image. You clearly have people stalking omega and stalking us three girls. Whether you want them to or not and you jumped to the conclusion we were all there talking shit about you. Well..........funny story lovey. We were all in a private discord call so how would you even know? We were all helping omega update his dragon, we were modding and doing things that DIDN'T concern YOU. So, stop stalking us, stop harassing us, as well as catnip coming at you in private? Do you realize she didn't NEED to join a discord group to get your name? Doesn't she have your name on her blocklist? She came at you because you stalked us because despite having been GIVEN an image, you still decided to use it and come up with a story to justify that image? You don't have logs, you don't have proof of anything we were talking about and yet decide..... " They're talking shit about me! " It's time to get off your high horse suda. It's time to drop this. Enough enough.